I sort bills on my own, I wish I dint have to
I study the Bible by myself, I pray I dint have to
I walk in the dark streets alone, crying but trying not to
I nurse myself back to health, wishing I dint have to
Reading my innermost thoughts to myself, knowing I don’t have to
Thinking and planning a future without a special you,
hoping I don’t have to…least not for long
Writing my dreams on my heart, I only wish I could write them on you
But life has to go on
It doesn’t have a pause button
else I would press and wait
Wait to share such epic moments with you
To include you in my daily activities
Moments that are eventually memories
Memories that are defining me
I crave to share with that special you
Are you selfless? Will you be my excellence?
See I am a stranger with my own heart
Cos I don’t understand
How I am soo sure about us
But then it only takes a few words to crush it
Hate when you cannot validate this
Jump in and save me
Don’t you see I am drowning
Love is hard, when two dreams are wide apart
Feeling unequally yoked
There is so much that can go wrong
Not wanting to move forth
Cos my way points to the truth
Choosing not to consider you
Fearing your path will take me off track
Love is hard, when two are not becoming one
So will you be more than my fan?
Be my number one
Will you offer guidance?
Can you pray for my future even if you are not the one?
