Life now feels like am waiting in line
I look over and see shorter queues
My peers are really making great moves
Wondering if I should switch
My line doesn’t seem to move an inch
Its hard to wait for my turn
Since it’s taking longer to be served
God what am I doing wrong
Why are dreams not working out
How come others found the way
Yet I am here wallowing in the same place
Am I missing a link
Please give me a hint
Cos I really want to achieve my dreams
It’s hard to wait for my turn
When it feels like its taking forever
Pressure to be a certain person,
To have accomplished something by now,
Have that dream relationship,
Be a big person in society
Making me say things that are not what they seem,
Painting my life to be all rossy,
When in reality things ain’t pretty
It’s hard to wait for my turn
Especially when things are just stagnant
Confused about what is pleasing and perfect
When asked I dunno what to say,I can’t handle it
Compromising on the whole truth
By hiding parts of me that are dark blue
How much is enough to share without oversharing?
Is the truth reserved for just the chosen few?
It’s hard to wait for my turn
When nothing is going as planned
Wisdom tells me to share very minimal with people
Because not everyone can be trusted with ones decisions
So giving grey answers is the new normal
These thoughts weighing heavily on me
Craving authenticity but too scared of it
I have to wait my turn
It’s not a matter of first come first served,
It’s about God’s will coming to pass
